Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Twilight Saga
Monday, October 10, 2011
What is it like?
Today is another blue-sky day and yet another day more towards winter. The leaves have changed their monotone colors and have started evolving into a fire dance. Gone are the days where the wind brings in a symphony of humdrum songs from the ice cream truck and giggles of innocent children in the street. The parks have called it a rest and succumbed to the silence of the beaches and woods till spring comes in their midst. Oh the fall indeed ushered the great winter and such passage is a perpetual mystery.
Everyone around me is silent and the leaves seem to be sleeping. Where are the deer that pay visit at my backyard and brave the evil plans of humanity? The trains are still in a far away land and their sounds will yet wake me up in my slumber or will they be delayed? I am aware that what I perceived as happening is not true. The world is moving on, without any thought of a destination. Everyone I guess is living, with a purpose on their cups. They have beliefs of immortality, thus they creep into whatever crevices they find themselves jovial. No thoughts of consequences, or what ripples it can cause in the river of life. No guilt to answer to or shadows to fear for. Their road continues without end . Free yet bounded by self and the vulnerability of being alone in a wide and stark desert.
I envy them not though I am one of them. I desire for the life of those who are immovable when death calls them in . They live their life the same as before whether misery ushers them in its hall of tears. They have found adventures in the mundane of life and only them have embraced the exquisite beauty of poverty . Nothing can shake their footstool . Each of their moment is a chance for weaving their tapestry of eternal life. Why can’t I not one of them?
Friday, October 8, 2010
syrupy concoction of a sleepy-head
Friday, June 12, 2009
updates!
So what's up with me lately? I've been so busy with work and my patience has been tested a zillion times . But funny to think that I just love my work! Our students though has autism, are angels and it is my privilege to train and form them. With regards to my weight problem, I have to say I am still a failure. But guess what? I signed up for a 9-mile walk/run this coming fall in upstate New York. Blame my friends and a chitchat over red wine for that! I really did take a leap of faith and I hope this time grace will fall over me and find myself in the finishing line. If you ask me about my adjustment in my new home, I would say it is getting better each day. I made lots of friends and had fun karaoking and hiking with them. We talked about anything under the sun, cries over each others problems and bear each others loads. It is indeed helpful that I have decided to bond with them the way I bonded with my friends back in the Philippines. I guess my roots are taking deeply in my new hometown's soil and I love every minute of it. There are booboos every now and then but I am thankful of them, it keep my life interesting and colorful. Just today, i was pulled over by the police officer for the first time. I thought , after he got my license and registration card, I can leave and just retrieve what he confiscated when I paid the fine. So then, i turn on my engine and drive slowly. Taanaaaan! There he comes again , this time thge siren lights turn on! What an ignorant Asian woman I am ! Well, though i have to pay the fine, i thank him and bid him a good day. Perhaps, he felt sorry for giving me a ticket.
So then, that's a bit of my life...I am looking forward to some travelling this year--- Seattle, Mexico and my beloved Philippines! I might post the pictures here . And i hope to post my new me in the fall after our 9mile run...
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
A twig for fire.
Yes, I do appreciate hate words, even those from the pro-choice and pro-abortion side of the earth and yes, even an “f” sign from that reckless driver down interstate 495.
But what I hate most is apathy.
Apathy lingers everywhere. I have seen it from my high school student’s blank stare after a well prepared lesson on issues of morality, freedom and responsibilities. It caused an uncalled death of a homeless guy in downtown D.C because 160 plus people passing by were scared to stop the attacker and worst too busy to call 911. Apathy may have been the reason why a visiting man just died of heart attack in a busy hallway of a hospital in Maryland and in millions of crime and injustices around the world.
I do think in many times I am completely guilty of endorsing and living apathy in my life. Worst, I hurt people and led them away from the truth and happiness because of that. It is sad to say that those I loved are the most victimized of my version of apathy. Surely, parents know well what I am saying.
And so a resolution—to hate what I hate most ! It is hard, I know , but the mere fact I realize it, is enough to start a new beginning. And if I fail, may I not go further in the mud the next time.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Crazy day
Weather truly mirrors life, don't you think?
Saturday, February 7, 2009
of books and memories
One thing I am happy about tonight too is that two of the books I suggested was chosen. The Heart of Darfur is a story or a New Zealander nurse whose works in Africa is a witness of the dignity of suffering and pain. I am sure this can help me realize again that in our weaknesses we are strong. Another book is Called out of Darkness, an autobiography of Anne Rice, the famous writer of Interview with the Vampire. How daring is this woman to share her intimate spiritual experience!
Likewise, I am equally excited to read the books my friends put in the list and happy to be back on reading again. It has been my consoling hobby ever since I can remember. Who else could introduce me to this friend but my own mother? Gossh this might end up to a nostalgic walk down memory lane again. I just miss my Mamang. I grew up not finding anything that can connect me to her except love for books. During my high school years, my mother had post-menopausal struggles while I was discovering myself as a teenager. That was truly a disastrous mix for a daughter and mother team but what made us talked like civilized people were books and reader’s digest magazines. Books was this magical glue that bonded us and has been the fabric that created our tapestry of memories.
The book club I started is I guess my way of living her memory. Whew I just realized that while finishing this entry . Hmmm… better say Good night now before a flood of grief overflows!