My last entry was more than a year ago. I talked about my latest work with children with autism and my eternal weight struggle. I did go to the marathon but because I flipped my ankle , I only finished two miles short of my 9-mile goal. It was a new experience which I decided long ago I will not do again. Running is not for me really. I rather be in the ocean and be with the fishes.
I still work with children with autism but not anymore in a school setting. I decided five months ago to pursue a professional certification and become a behavior analyst. So now, I am a full time student and hoping to be be done with school and certification by January of 2012.
According to my family and friends, I seems to be well adjusted to my new home already. Why not when I've been here for the past three years now. I witnessed a change of president, harsh winter, three super bowl games, acquired many friends from different countries and have been paying monthly mortgage. And so they thought...
Some things never change. I still eat rice , crave for those awful smelling shrimp paste and Filipino food, sleeps in the same position and commits same kind of sin , more or less...And worst, I still miss my parents.
They say that time can heal all wounds. You forget your ex-boyfriend or you forget whatever grudges you keep against someone as time passes by. But I guess not the grief of losing both of your parents.
I do miss my Papang and Mamang and I verbalize such feelings in so many behavior. Anger, resentment, failure and most of all guilt are just few of those forms of behavior. When can I get over this with? When can this end?
